Nothing to do lol~

Finally get a new phone... very small and handy haha... look cute also haha...

Been working almost for 3months... and it a nice job... and I don't really care about the pay is little lol as long as I can live it ok with me lol~ still haven't get notice for my ns... wish it will delay longer!! haha than I can enjoy more...

haiz... feeling stress... feel like crying all the time... chest ache every second...
I think i got phobia with girl boy relationship lol I like the girl but I don't dare to tell... that why I still a idiot until now... everytime I wanna do something it alway too late... I hate last minute!!
I never going to plan for anything liao... it suck... If I can't have her I going to stay single forever~ it more easy for me... even I not going to have kids still have my brother to continue our family bloodline...

nothing to write liao lol...
hope of one day I can be with her walking at a beach during sunset...(maybe a little old school lol)
Until next time...

My Birthday...

October 31... my birthday... 1st thing.. before my birthday... 1st is I fall down and elbow bleed... 2nd spring my back and neck... what a unlucky birthday... every year alway happen bad things before my birthday... I wanna cry... but this year it totally suck... move my elbow = pain... turn my neck to right side also pain... move my back also pain... crap... somemore every year rain... totally halloween day feeling lor... so unlucky for me to be birth on this day... everything go bad before my birthday but good things is that there is alway someone be there to wish me happy birthday... i'm happy because of the wishes...I don't mind if i don't get any birthday present but the heart to sms or call me and say happy birthday is important to me... so everyone who see this must sms or call me to say happy birthday ALRIGHT!!!! but this year too many bad things happen... it kind of hit me very hard... still hard to over come it... but it will take time...
ok let talk about today... firstly~! in the morning go eat breakfast with mother but before I go out... when I drink a glass of water... a very strong pain suddenly hit my chest... I knee down right away when the pain hit... I don't know why but chie kuan say it because I overwork so maybe I should relax more but at work there are stupid people also... so it hard not to get angry... but I guess I just have to bear with it...and after that I go home use com until 2pm... go east coast park with Chie kuan and Ming da~!! my primary school friends~
but when we reach there it already going to rain... like alway my birthday = rain... get use to it anyway... but we go there play with skate haha but I not that good... i can't brake lol... but after we play abit than it start to rain and it super heavy... after that we went home... i come home and bath and the wound at my elbow is !@#$%^&*()_+!!)*&$*@$ pain... after that use com again until 8+pm ting fang call me and ask me today is what day lol... of cause i know today is my birthday la... but still alot of people forget!!!! but nevermind lor...it ok also... since I don't really celebrate... so it ok i guess... and she buy me a chocolate cake... lol and she buy too big I guess lol
only got 5 people still got half left lol... haha be breakfast tomorrow I guess... haha... She send me a birthday wishes but I don't feel enough... I want to chat with her on phone but she didn't pick up... maybe she is asleep so it ok... Wish to hear her voice again... But am I worth enough?
But now what I'm thinking is... who am I to her and what is she to me?
For me? She is the one i truly liked with all my heart... But I don't understand about her... but I wish to learn more about her... what she like? what she hate? and what her favorite? but I don't have a chance to stay close to her... but I didn't even meet her in real life before... but I don't know what life will happen next...So i guess it time for me to let her go... so I guess my only wish can be...

NEXT IS WHAT I WISH FOR WHEN I BLOW MY CANDLE!!!!

IT THE SIMPLE WISH EVER!!!

it is... I wish everyone will be happy and healthy...And all your dreams come true..
it not a big wish... gods... don't make me lost my faith in you... this is all I wish for...
And a Special wish it to keep for myself~

That all~! hope everyone is happy!!!

Nothing to say...

Losing my sense of humor, hope and don't feel like talking anymore... alot of things happened... my brother don't like the way i talk... The one I like(Don't dare to say love) had a boyfriend...When I just heard it I feel like a gun shot direct into my heart... wanna cry but can't... just wish she can be happy... nothing else is needed... just when I wanna to do something... but it too late... it doesn't matter anymore... Just hope that guy is the right guy for her...
Since I don't really understand her...maybe this is the right thing to happen... as long as she is happy it doesn't matter to me... I will never going to have a girlfriend anymore... I swear to myself... If I can't have her...I going to be single for the rest of my life... chinese alway say... don't give up the whole forest because of one tree... but sometime the whole forest only has one tree that is you like the most... and no matter what happen you only want this tree... if I can't get that one tree... i rather give up the whole forest...
Back to following life...
Don't feel like doing anything anymore... Just let it be...
Don't feel like doing anything for my birthday just want to sleep whole day... no mood to play any game or eat... can't sleep at night... chest just keep hurting... every single second... Eat sweets feel like it is too sweet...eat salty things feel like it too salty... somehow don't feel like eating anything even I'm hungry... today only finished 1 cup noodle...
Don't even want to think about anything anymore... just do what I'm told to do... Sorry if I talk to softly everyone because i totally don't feel like talking... Really moody to the depth of hell...

Been Thinking...

What if I can do something for everyone?
What can it be?
Have fun together?
Eat lunch together?
Chat with each other?
Is that all?

We are getting older everyday but our way of thinking is not the same as everyone...
I wish to understand what other think of me... and i wish to understand everyone...

I don't even know what I am typing lol
Just wish to live happy in this life time...
Be with the one i love... Do the thing i like... Be with my friends...

Now...

My brother, My playmate, My playmate girlfriend and me

Haizz... started work now no mood to play game anymore... need to find a new hobby... don't feel like buying comic anymore... only thinking of saving money... want buy ps3 and a new laptop~ want to go to friend house and play game together~ haha...

Sian... why i make up my mind and thing just don't go as i plan... so fed up... just want to tell her... but because of work cannot meet her anytime i want... and somehow can get off yet cannot meet... sian sia... been moody like alway.. kena 3 complain because of rubbish... sick and lost my voice... work until my voice like a freak and pain like hell... finally recovery yet been bother by this... just want to make it clear that i like her like i alway do... just want to let her know...

sian let continue some other time... with more information~ lol

My Thought...

Why is it so hard to understand love... Why is it love can be so painful... how to understand this single feeling...and if someone have a gf/bf they want to be a good guys and give everything to their partner but their partner might think is not enough...but be a bad guys don't really do anything they think you don't care... see my friends so sad i also sad...zzzz i can't do anything to help... but can only listen to their problem... i cannot really give you guys any advice but at least you can tell me about it and relax alittle...

And in my heart i alway have someone important to me... i wish to let her know... i really like her... and i want to know more about her... i wish i can hold her tight... and never let go... all i can do now is wait... until the day we meet... i wish to tell her in person... even if rejected... i will alway wish she is happy forever... because i know myself is not a very good person... there is alot of other people better then me... to me.. if i really love her... she must be happy... that is good enough for me... if she is unhappy because of her partner... i will kill that idiot that make her unhappy...

People alway say must live a happy life but in a city how to live a happy live if you are alone almost everytime... and the air is bad and almost everywhere is noisy... can't even take a nap... -.-

Today abit Emo lol too long didn't blog liao hahaha and because of what my friends is going though i think alot...

I want to cherish everyone important to me... ck...js... and all my friends... her too...
If fate is cruel and break us apart then why must i follow this freaking rule...
I will make my own fate!! See if gods really exist!! or they are just dogs that human created!!!(if people don't agree with me don't come scold me can liao =x)

Totally Sian...

Everyday at home do nothing... been training with chie kuan!~ it fun to sweat sometime haha... next time can video and see haha.. found a very nice video haha very funny...

Yesterday went for a wedding dinner...lol end up drink 3 cups of red wine... when come house @@ liao lol... after laying down awhile go drink water ended up vomited zzzz... drink some tea... ended up cannot sleep... 2am wake up... after that 4am wake up... then cannot sleep... watch tv until 7++am then go eat breakfast...kns.. from now on i don't want drink any wine or beer liao... soft drinks only =X head freaking pain.. ><

Go out with family...

It been a long time since i last go out with family haha... we went to ubin... cycle until leg pain lol... and go look at the nature, feel the wind of the sea... it feel nice... we cycle for hours and i can't help to fall asleep when riding car home hahaha... but it feel nice when going out with family... it good if we can do it once in a while... anyway some picture on the trip~

question~

1) Besides lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss ?
Forehead i guess?
2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning ?
Don't feel like waking up hahaha
3) Who was the last person you took with ?
No one
4) Would you consider yourself to be spoiled ?
No...
5) Would you donate blood ?
Maybe?
6)Have you ever had a best friend who is the opposite sex ?
I have i guess?
7) Do you want someone dead ?
Yes! Selfish people and Bully
8) What does the last message says ?
Didn't get any message...
9) What are you thinking right now ?
Think of how to finish this question..
10) Do you wish someone with you right now ?
Ya.. But...
11) What time you went to bed last night ?
3am++ ba?
12) Where did you buy the t-shirt that you're wearing right now ?
Jurong point lol
13) is someone in your mind ?
I guess so..
14) Who was the last person you text ?
No one
15) 10 PEOPLE TAGGED TO DO QUIZ.
1. Pu xiu 2. Jia Xin 3.Xi Wen 4.no one 5. no one 6. no one 7. no one 8. no one 9. no one 10. no one
16) Who is 2 having relationship with ?
No idea
17) Is 3 male or female ?
male
18) if 7 & 6 get together, would it be a good thing ?
No one
19) what is 1 studying about ?
Mutimedia
20) when was the last you had chat with 5 ?
Never
21) is 4 single ?
No one
22) say something about 2 ?
Friendly i guess?
23) what do you think of 3 & 6 being together ?
Together with no one?
24) what will you do if 6 & 7 fight ?
No one fight with no one?
25) do you like 3 ?
Errrr... ok lor..

Sian...

There nothing to do at all... thinking too much don't feel like doing anything... why I don't know... maybe something bothering me... for now is left with waiting for NS... haiz... don''t even know what to write on blog lol... until next time...

What is LOVE?

To begin with... i think about it... i don't even know how to love someone anymore... Maybe because my failure for my love life... i don't understand love... or maybe i'm scare to be hurt again... because my ex make me until !@#$%^&*(^%#!$#&!^@$#!*&%#$!&*@@$*!&%^$!!... i don't understand why i alway be so kind even i'm damn hurt... so fuck up... i don't understand myself... anymore... i want to be heartless!!! NA BEI!!!! WHY I'M SO IDIOTIC DE!!!! I DON"T WANT BE SAINTLY KIND!!! I WANT BE DEMONIC EVIL!!!!

Back to blog lol~

nice sun set don you think? i taken myself =)
Try tie my hair up haha still look the same
BOOO~ nothing to do so blog hahaha... sian... mother go perth to work... no woman at home = house is in a great big mess zzzzz... sian... somemore everyday eat same thing =.= father cooking suck sia... go out don't know what to eat... kns... today end up eating seaweed for lunch... but at least got buy a dark chocolate to cheer me up from this sianness =X ... but now aday don't feel like doing anything... don't even feel like talking anymore as well... because slapped by my brother... zzzz because of my way of talking... nabei... sibei du lan... don't want to talk at home forever....zzzz only talk with important things liao...

FUCKING SELFISH PEOPLE!!!

NA BEI TODAY TAKE BUS GO HOME FROM SCHOOL LIKE ALWAY BUT SI BEI DU LAN!!!... on the bus i get a seat so listen to my music... but after awhile a pregnant woman come aboard the bus.. but no one want to give seat to her so i decide to give my seat to her but a bloody auntie go sit... than more people get on the bus and keep asking me to move in but she pregnant and pushing a baby car... WTF SIA they cannot see don't mean they don't exist sia!!! lucky at a stop got alot of people get off the bus and then have more seat and a kind auntie help her hold the baby... feel like shouting but i don't want to scare the baby... that will make more trouble... end up i just watch... KNS so many fat ass and selfish people!! 1 person take 2 seat.. so stupid...

Write until here for now... until next time...

somemore next time sure take picture and stomp!!

Reasons...

Now i understand... There is no real me... no matter how much i try is still the same... I'm still me but only the way I think stuff in another way... So i don't wanna bother what will happen to me i just live my life the way it is... I don't care if anything happen.. i will live as long as I can til my fate ended... Then I will rest in peace and bless everyone have a happier life...

I wish to get a island for myself and live a peaceful life there... but there is no way to do it without money... but dreams is what make reality~

that all for now~ until next time~

I never get tired of picture that have sky in it~

Sky

I have taken alot of picture of the sky... how i wish i can fly in the sky to see how it is to look down on earth... i wan to look at the beautiful light on the ground like how i wish to look at the star on the sky... but because of cloud and many reason we can no longer see the star... but it ok... as long as they are still there we can see it one day...

New Year Started

anyway wat do you think the picture above is?



On Dec holiday i gone to my friend jie sheng house to stay almost the whole holiday and on dec 25 is his birthday~ we celebrate on xmas eve at midnight~ and that day we laugh until later night haha it was fun but i didn't take any picture on that day... ><

Next is~ i went to my parent new stall to help and it quite ok la but still tired haha got picture for that~ hahaha

lastly taken alot of nice picture of the sun set and afternoon sun~!
love taking this kind of picture hahaha